The Twist Of Lee

Thanks again for dropping by. How is everyone doing? I get a lot of “How are you?” too lately. And next, a sequel of questions will be lining up either in front of my laptop screen or my mobile phone - “Where are you working now?” “What is your post?” “HOW MUCH IS YOUR SALARY?” They will make better headlines than any sodomy case you have heard during the prime time. Are they making a database to calculate, see if it gives a normal, Poisson or Weibull distribution? Of course not, they jus wanna see if you are doing better than they do. I told some of them I am currently working as a waiter in a Chinese coffee shop and they actually believe it.  Perhaps you might have came across experience like mine. And having said
so, their typical responses will either be any of the apes’ caption you are looking at. Then, they don bother to talk
to you again until they need any of your assistance. Let’s face this, the society is cruel. Malaysia Truly Caring.. Amen

The silence over the period of July was filled up with the talk from top start till bottom end of a friend we thought we know for years. And I was glad I wasn’t the only one who felt so about the person. Silence was also broken with calls for interview, and there were also technical and moral back-ups from LaiKwan, JunNi and ShehKi. Credits for them. Thank you! I picked up a couple of things throughout this period of time – I still think I’m better with writing compared to speaking although there are interviewers who claim that it’s a waste I’m not joining the politic (I still think it is a sarcasm though LOL); also, the fact that the art of finger-pointing can be so damn liberal. Trust me, I can really elaborate on this. Truth will prevail in times of hardship. This is so true. And I am glad I still have friends who will be there for me in times of need.

Entering August, besides the Beijing Olympic, I have also personally achieved a personal-brand-new record.
I went to 4 local universities in 3 days – UPM, UKM, USM and UM. Went back to claim my final semester result and yea, convocations are going on all over the country, and I finally got to Eyes On Malaysia before being filched away to become Eyes On Melaka 谢谢Gohui. By the way, I really need to say thanks again to my coolest-roommate-all time, Eric, for always providing me the best hospitality whenever I’m in Penang. Thank you thank you! Also, Congratulations to PeiFong, PohHoon, ShehKi and ChuiHoon on your recent graduations.

It seems like it was jus last week since all of us got our offer letters from our universities and gathered at ShehKi’s place more than four years ago. Siew Siew was still weeping that night upon the confirmation from Unimas. Time flies.  And so many things had taken place over the past 4 years. And the worst part is, kids have already started to greet us as aunty and uncle. Zzzzzz

August – hmmn, 有人欢喜，有人忧愁。身边的朋友一个接一个分手， 一个接一个结婚。 有人因为责任，选择逃避爱情；也有人因为爱情，选择逃避责任。这个月，算是有悲有喜. But the weird part is, those separation are meant for the victims’ own good. I guess it is pretty ironic too in a way huh? Perhaps there wasn’t sufficient love or the possible intervention of foreign contaminant. Cos when the magic really takes place, no matter how different the individuals are, they eventually end up together. Jus like Wall-E and Eve; after all, life is all about being persistent and steady…

And will we really have a new prime minister in Sept? Perhaps on the 13^th? We’ll soon find out. Cheers.

Food For Thought,

Wall-Eve

探

不过打发时间

也许。。我真的错怪了

 

误

不如人言可畏

也许。。 我真的错算了

 

解

不必如此麻烦

也许。。 我真的错看了

 

明

不是每人所拥

也许。。 我真的错过了

 

话

不该无中生有

也许。。 我真的做错了

 

糕

不能说是最棒

也许。。我真的量错了

 

离

不会是人为的

也许。。 我真的错失了 

 

病

不断的困扰着

也许。。 我真的耐错了

 

油

不停把各价涨

也许。。 我真的投错了

我

不再打扰你了

也许。。 我真的走错了

I
have just reached Teluk Intan last evening, as a respond to my mom’s usual cynical
criticism that goes ‘我的孩子啊？他很久都没回来咯。。’
Yes, I am back to put on some weight where I will be fed with desserts, fruits
and cookies at the regularity of every 2 hours besides my heavy main courses. I
haven’t come home since the last general election that has generated a few
tidal waves not just in the local political stream itself but also the
Government as well as the change in the reporting orientation of the local
dailies. Gee, I hope you guys are ready for more revolutions, especially this
coming September as Najib will be celebrating my birthday on the 13^th

 

Alright
that was a joke. But here are some updates about things that have been
happening to the people I know.

1. Sean: will be coming to Malaysia soon,
   (I Think), although he is still keen on traveling to a few places like his
   friends do.
2. KenBoon: involved in an accident a few weeks ago while leaving
   the highway rest area and spinning his brain cells at the same time. Trying to
   avoid a pussy cat, he then rammed to the side of the road.
   He is alright but
   burnt a few hundreds there.
3. SiewSiew: currently on her way back from Tioman Island.
4. SukPeng: a full time Serdang citizen right now who only finds reason to go
   home when her dad returns from Indonesia.
   She is working in Serdang Perdana besides earning some extras from her printing
   job.
5. PengChing: a programmer and currently holding the post of software
   engineer.
6. ChoonYong: has got plan of moving back to Penang
   after his 25^th birthday on the April 16^th, I don’t know,
   after much distance crisis? Or someone is hitting on his girl friend?
7. WeiBin: I
   tried to call him yesterday (Saturday), but he was too busy to talk to me. He
   was a bit pissed off there. Hmmn, probably a bad time to call.
8. LaiKwan: finally decided not to continue her master studies under NTU
   and opt to lead on
   a simpler life although she still misses the mamak life in Malaysia.
9. PohHoon: back to KL after a 2-months-plus stay in Muar and is currently
   sitting for her final exam.
10. ChengWhye: still drooling over pork
11. Wywa: back to Malaysia again if I’m not mistaken.
12. WaiLeng: quitting her current job and is in
    search of a new one in KL.
13. ShehKi: finally settled out the issue she has
    with her housemates but her MSN lately still display some sad captions.
14. Junni:
    called me up when she was enjoying her Cameron Highlands trip. I think she is doing well as she has jus finished her block and postings. 
15. Szen: I have no news cos most of the time it is me who sms or call him. (I am
    too attached recently… Sigh). But the good news is he has started to go to Kota
    Bahru to have his meals at times instead of having them at the hostel cafeteria.
16. WeiYap: got promoted at the tuition centre he is working right now and is already planning his marriage.
    

 

Kylie
and CheeSeng are a pair now. Man, I was so moved, so emotionally moved when I
saw their pictures. But he doesn’t seem to reply the smses I sent, Sigh… Perhaps he has had enough of the mafan I have given him. And as
for me, my university life is winding up in less than a month and right now I’m
attached to my final thesis draft submission before my VIVA in May. However I
still manage to steal time to lend a hand to others’ theses that are in need
and to attend some big matches of EPL and Champions League. Speaking of
football, look. I am sorry if you found it offended when I supported Arsenal
and not your MU during last week’s big match. I know Gav, you supported my team
when they were head to head against Arsenal for 3 consecutive matches earlier
on. The Aston Villa fan was a silly joke. I am a fan of Walcott, and the whole
crowd was cheering for MU, I just thought the minority needed my support. Never
thought it would provoke you. Hey, cheer up. It’s only a ball. We have got more
right?

 

And
I appreciate that you were trying to get me to the Double A seminar in Bangkok.
But chill man,
no worries. I really do not mind not getting to join you guys. We don’t always
get everything we want in life; we just need to deal with that, as long as we
have put in our best effort of what we can offer. Perhaps I can join the
following session, who knows? Trust me, 失去也是另一种获得. By the way, it was really eye-opening to see you and Ah Heng
singing karaoke the other day. I love those tunes that you guys have sung. CheeHong
and I were very surprised. Haha…

 

Zifei
is now 24 years and one week old. Her birthday was very well celebrated. She
thought she could get away by her swift move of blowing and removing the
candles in seconds. She was wrong. Her face was then plastered with icings and
the next thing we knew, the whole café was filled with her screeching screamS.
She had a wonderful 24^th birthday. That night, she cried upon extending her personal thank to 3 persons. I want to thank you too for being my
shopping, sushi and dinner kaki throughout this final academic year. Your tears
and shivering laughter will always be memorable to all of us. And hereby,
please do me a favour, do look after that big kid who will be joining you to
the States in the Work and Travel program. :]

 

Having
Redang Trip, Graduation Night, Final Exams and Thesis Submission coming under
the last week of lecture was extremely heavy and yet fun at the same time. Final
Exam; I need to thank Gohui for the notes or else I think I would have flunked
my Process Plant Design.
Redang; No, I didn’t hurt my toes this time around but
was rather busy going after the baby sharks. There were a few  collisions before
this trip but thanks to Gav and Elaine, we managed to give these problems a
single solution.
That 2 weeks, I didn’t sleep well. I only slept for 3 hours
everyday tied up making video clips and arrangements for graduation night. Our
efforts were appreciated and we knew it was a success when the committee team
managed to squeeze A LOT OF tears out of our coursemates.  But still, there is still a coursemate who
regarded me as Andrew Lee. -.-`

 

Everyone
has changed ever since we stepped into our final year. Even I have changed. I
have chosen not to put the reliance solely on a single individual. I realize
when the dependence is not hung on to, I tend to get and earn more. And when I
say I earn, I take the good and bad stuffs into account. After much occurrences
this time around, I noticed I am slowly being shaped into a person buffered
with temper. And that is why, things that have never bothered me before is now
an issue to me. Lately, I realize I am somehow troubled by the scenario that I
am only a friend when there is no exams, no tests and no assignments. Perhaps it
was really hard to let go of the couple of things you have in hand. Sigh… Am I
not putting myself in your shoes? I don know. Everyone has the same 24 hours,
if you can spend time loitering here and there, there is no excuse you have no
time for your studies. No reason why you can’t even come out for a cup of tea
in front of your house.

 

And
I don’t like it. I hate the idea of things that have been uttered and spoken
but never meant. If you don’t think you can make it, jus say so, I will
certainly be more than just glad to accept the circumstances. But do not give an
OK to me and the next minute, you come to me with a bunch of excuses. Look at
your IC and measure your age. You can’t even make up your mind or at least try
to be decisive? Why eating your own words? Perhaps it’s my personal issue again. I have forgotten the reminder that Junni once taught me; 不要盼望，就不会有失望。I guess I have
slowly bloomed into another person but I am putting my emotions at stake before
anything, which I shouldn’t. I shall seize this new me and try integrating it
with 原本的我. But remember, don’t
expect.

 

But
despite these issues, April 2008 is simply a remarkable month. 5/4 The Little
Elephant Tale. 8/4 Serenity Ain’t Beauty. 12/4 Breaking News. 16/4 My Chicken
Soup Story. 17/4 The Tarik Tea Break. 19/4 Woo-Ley.  Reminds me of 《我要的幸福》

Every fall will pilot to
a growth. 固执不是坚持，执著总会惹祸。Shall
we look at the bigger picture, with the anticipation for a better tomorrow with
hope and faith?

 

Recalling
what Jeremy Heng told me on the first week upon ending my internship last year;
to appreciate my final year. I am starting to embrace the meaning behind those
words as I have been holding back things that I did not do for the past three
years. But this year, I have done everything I could, I have done everything I
should and I have done everything I would. Whatever the upshot may be, these
four academic years, I have no regrets. Thank you, for being a part of these
four beautiful episodes.

 

Ending
University Life,

Soaking What Remains

It’s the first day of Chinese New Year 2008. And look at me… I’m sitting in front of the screen again allowing my fingers to flow again on top of the keyboard. Happy Chinese New Year and Happy holidays pals. I think by the time you guys are reading this, it’s either you are already at work or back to your respective unis. And as for me? I’m still dwelling with my spreadsheets and yea, I have a paper next Wednesday, in fact some told me there are two on the same day. Not exactly a Happy Chinese New Year , is it? Lol…

Thank you thank you and thank you for all your beautiful CNY smses. They are all great especially those who have taken the initiative to type in the text themselves. Thanks a lot, your smses are very much appreciated. I don’t know if these smses will still be coming in next year, cos most of us will be graduating this coming May. Of all my school mates, I have only received two. No heart and therefore no initiative. I guess that implies me too. :d But jus to update you. WeiBin soon move to Ipoh, he found a better job, with (definitely) better environment. Siew has now moved to Bukit Jalil but can’t make her way to Nestle because she can’t bring along an important person. Junni is not so skinny anymore and Su Yi brought back a hamper from Puchong. Oh yes, yours truly is still single.

Now if you guys believe in fengshui, here is basically some of the things you might wanna look out for this year. I flipped through The Star this morning and here are some tips which I can share with you. 2008 will be a year of fortune for the following rats: Libran, Taurean, Leonine, Virgoan and Cancerian. Work hard and harvest is a lot. Rat, horse, rabbit and rooster will offend the Grand Duke so put on an Ox pendant. Shift your bed or desk if it is facing the North. Lucky colours: Metallic, blue, black and white. Avoid activities in the south direction. Telecommunication, wood and plantation industries will blossom. Last but not least, be more charitable.

I have also managed to catch a program in regards of fengshui on TV2 this morning. Relationship wise: There will be unexpected pleasant surprises for the Rats. Fluctuations will occur on the second half of the year, for the Oxen. Goats will gain something new while the Monkeys will have a smooth-sailing year ahead. “if you fear changes and arguments, avoid using the West. If you are stuck in a relationship with little prospect of advancement, consider using the West sector. Painful to change but sometimes, change is for the better”, quote Joey Yap.

January wasn’t exactly a good month for some other friends. Another friend of mine went shopping the other day and had her car rammed into someone else’s. And she had to compensate a four digit amount. Nop, she didn’t tell her loved ones. Fixing everything all by herself, well, almost. And the best part of the story: she has finally managed to interprete the meaning of “Losing is Gaining”, which me and my best friend had been trying to put them in plainer words for her. But the price to pay… Er… dear, it IS dearie.

‘Jarum Halus’,a non-mainstream film screened in MidValley under International Screen. The director, Mark Tan is a young talent from Malaysia has made the best cinematography in the local films that I have seen so far. The angles of capturing something very ordinary we see in our daily lives are, believe me, more than just amazing! Performance wise, I won’t give it a high credit because the leading characters had actually created more amusement among the audience when romance and hatred were supposed to come into play. But one line in the movie that is thought-provoking goes out like this: “The finest needle is to convince people that the seams do not exist.” Think about it. And I can’t believe my movie date had actually claimed that Razif has got the best look in the entire movie. Okla… I understand. She is unique.

I’m wondering if Sean is doing well in UK. (Happy belated birthday by the way) But I can tell you, sooner or later, he will come back to Malaysia with a strong British accent. Well, he is supporting himself at Old Trafford, no? Where he can almost watch stars like Tevez and Nani in actions regularly, and not to mention, pitch-actor equipped with talent, Mr. C. Ronaldo. Wow. People pay so much to get into the Stadium and he can enjoy every single game at no cost. Yea, speaking of EPL, How is Ashley Cole doing? I haven’t been following his news since her wife shoo her out of his mansion. Her wife (ex-wife?) is TERRIFICALLY stunning. Silly. And that’s the mildest word that I can offer.

Who will ever tolerate cheating? (Besides Dr. Chua’s wife). No one would. Certainly not me. Ask anyone who had been cheated. Trust me, you can go hysterically mad to the extreme point of having atmospheric suffocation. So guys, see the price Ashley has paid? Be thankful la of what you have in hand, unless you believe it’s your other half who is causing the suffocation. Nothing is ever too bad, I believe things can always be sorted out through proper flow of communication.

Each time I blog, it is always about relationships revolving around my friends. (Well, almost…) And this time around, there is no exclusion. One claims: He is always a good friend, but definitely not a good lover. He left her for another girl but then still call this friend of mine once in a while; basically to insult my friend saying that she wont be able to survive without him. This man is entirely another person from my first impression. Which reminds me of a saying: Do not judge a book? Yes, that’s right, by its cover. Too late, my friend had actually got her hair wet. She still sheds her tears once in a while but it won’t stop her from cursing him. Sigh…

I was reminded by a friend’s girlfriend that do not overexpect at people who seems to care for me. It can be very superficial. I will never know if that person is hiding at certain part of the world trying to stab me from the back. Man, that was fairly heavy, wasn’t it? Thank you very much for reminding. Certainly a fine reminder but I guess I am still capable of knowing the type of people whom I should take heed. This world is a big play. Actors are looking for fame, producers are aftering profitS, directors love giving orders and the scriptwriters will determine the story flow. We shall all settle down in our respective comfort zones… 

While some has already made up her mind to pick one between two, some are still craving for a way out in a stuck relationship. Enzyme didn’t successfully bind its substrate due to the interference of certain inhibitors in the enzymatic reaction, which is only looking for a very simple substrate. This enzyme is however still keen on binding this particulate since 1.5 years ago for fear that the yield will be hideous. Enzyme knows its substrate has revolutionized. Substrate no longer fits its active site and so, it is also making itself loose and sometimes even wounded itself in order to sustain the existing conformation. It is in his blood, so claimed. But seriously, I am happy that a person like enzyme still presents in the existing history of mankind. And it is reasonably rare to find something like enzyme because: correct me if I’m wrong, all the modern days care about is nothing else but their own happiness… You tell me…

Someone is at the gate. Correction: A whole bunch of friends is flocking my gate. For the first time, in ten years I didnt receive a card or a sms from him.. Sigh… I do miss him. You know who you are, but I guess I will have to make a trip to Kelantan to catch up with you again even though you are permanently settled near the place where I am currently studying. I’ve gotta make a move. See you again in my next post.

Happy Chinese New Year. Yup, A Happy one…

Hope Andrew’s Partially Pacified You,

Definitive Damper

I haven’t been posting anything
on my blog for quite a while. Final year is busy and when you are an undergraduate
of abroad, it could be worse. At least I know someone who is. :] But despite
the tight schedules, I still steal time to chill out at Secret Recipe. Cool eh?
I guess calling yourselves busy is just an excuse of camouflaging poor time
management. Nop, I don’t have a good one too, or else I would have scored A in
every single exam for the past four years. Here’s my stand; work hard, play
hard. Start DOMing or STARBUCKing yourselves, afterall, you’ll never know what’s
ahead of you in the next 24 hours.

 

V Garden, Klang. It was the first
friend’s wedding dinner that I have ever attended. It happened last night. Thank
God, the bridegroom could still recognize me and he was glad that I could make
it telling me that, “Man, you are really here!”. Shy Ni looked so stunning in her
red cheongsam on the second half of the dinner. Despite having to attend to
more than 400 heads, they still managed to put their brightest smiles on although
Alan looked a bit lost at the beginning of his once in a lifetime function.

 

It was really great to catch up
with some friends from Haisan. Everyone was in good shape, except for me. I didn’t
have a good sleep on the previous night. Partly because Shy Ni was getting
married the next day? Nah… I’m sure we are all happy for her. I had a fever
before driving all the way to Bukit Tinggi. And to make things worse, I had
these whole burning sensation around my chest upon finishing the second dishes.
And that was only me. I guess a quick prayer did help a little. :d

 

No one would love to attend a
wedding especially when it is not their own wedding. Lol. (Quote- My Best
Friend’s Wedding) But to me, an invitation is an honour from the newly-wed
couple, and I think it is important to pour our blessings by showing up during
dinner, which also acts as token of friendship appreciation.  On the other hand, it was really good to catch
up with Ho, Kylie, Pat, Angie and Chooi Peng. ( I need to put his name first or
else he will make a lot of noise, again. Lol…) A friend’s wedding banquet is
also the reflectance of a self-regulated question: When’s mine? Even I can feel
the imperceptible pressure.

 

Why are people still single? May
be they prefer a life with no string attached, may be they still find it hard
to let go of the previous relationship, or may be they don’t have the strength
to trust love again? May be they are still in search of the right market, or may
be they are not in a hurry to become a desperate housewife? “Should I introduce
you to the pretty girl? ”, Angie asked me, referring to a fine-looking girl 2
meters away from our table. “ Er… She is not exactly my cup of tea…” 

 

Lol, she said it was a heavy
response from me. Well, I said you have vanilla, strawberries and chocolate
ice-creams. I prefer to have chocolate, doesn’t sentence any implication that
vanilla and strawberries taste bad. I mean, you like what you like la… betul
tak? :] Everyone gave me a different respond. Ho, who kept picking on the girls
that night, rolled his eyeballs to his left corner, Pat suspected I attended
literature classes, Kylie and Bee Ling were just smiling with something running
through their minds. Angie? Smiling with a strong sense of disagreement.  But then again, you wont know how does a yam-flavoured
ice-cream taste like until you have really given it a shot. You tell me. . .

 

Tomorrow will be my parents’ 25^th
wedding anniversary. They have surely gone through a lot to come up to that
figure. Their friends and family will be there, well may be not exactly all,
but almost. I might wanna bake them a cake. I think it is really something very
blissful to be able to bake cake for your loved ones. I have attended the first
class to bake muffins today. With chicken floss and mayonnaise. Aiya, just went
there to kill time la…  I’m trying out
chocolate moist cake tomorrow. Phew, I hope it will work. Damn! I totally put
the olive oil off my mind! But you know what’s more important? Forget about
diet, grab hold the wonders of food. Cheers.

 

p/s: It is snowing again..

 

Merry Christmas and A Delightful
2008 ahead,

Bachelor  [ of Engineering (Process & Food) ] 

June has put the first half of 2007
to an end. July left, allowing August to set in. I should really learn to let go in order to
experience and construct different episodes of life. But it’s a heavy load to take up everything
since I’m the producer, the actor, script-writer and the editor. Gee… Jus like our final academic year. Very much busier than I have initially contemplated.

 

August – It started off so
beautifully. Despite having heavy
schedules, I could still manage to find time gluing myself to the MSN
screen. Housemates were filing
complaints after complaints about me hiding in the room all day long. I bet everyone thought I was on porn. Funny.  My cells were still emerging even though they
have undergone numerously rapid mitosis. I must be hiding and running away for too long until a leaf flew before
my eyes. Giving me a good unusual respite signifying hope on something I have always wanted to cling on.

 

The month of August has
also celebrated the birthdays of 2 of my closest person in life. One was too far for me to bring him a cake,
and the other one was too attached. Ahh…
Did I mention lacrimal glands were very much teased? Well this time around, they were certainly not mine. Something bad
must had taken place. Something really
bad. It was very unusual to see a Leo
falling apart just before my eyes. My…
it was way too contradicting to how I had encountered last year.

 

I doubt Szen has had his birthday
well celebrated this year. Like previous
years, when everyone had chosen to go home to visit family and friends during
the one week long convocation break, he had opted to stay back at his health campus.
But this year was extra special; it was
9^th of August, 2007. 090807. This
day did not just mark a special birthday date of my close buddy but also celebrated
a big turning point of someone else’s life. 

 

A friend came over to ask me if
he should be attending his girl friend’s convocation. I think I went too harsh telling
him he was asking a stupid inquiry. Well, I am sorry. Perhaps I should have
simplified it by just giving him a Yes. I guess I must have been too disturbed
over the convocation word. But there will always be limitations and restrictions. “You just can’t get everything you
want in life!”. Nothing happens by chance, ever, but still the instar has managed to stumble on
its own piece of foliage.

 

Pupa has finally evolved into a sexually
matured butterfly. But the dyes are
still all over. Time to move on, leave
the multi legs behind and manage those dyes which slow down our paces of lives. Relax,
ought to know it is very time consuming to dry up those dyes. When they do,
that is when the moment,

We are all set to fly.

 

Predators will be waiting,

But so
will I..

 

Indulging Back To Pokemon,

Butt-A-Free

I’m sick. Yet, my fingers are itchy. I need to do this. Thanks for dropping by. How is everyone? It’s Thursday and guess what? I’m back to a
place call home. As I was driving back
from Klang last night, I put on a disc I bought for RM 5 from pasar malam on
Monday. No, it isn’t any cheap Fergie or slutty Gwen
Stefani, not Yanzi or any pop star you can possibly think of. Bought myself a Fei Yu Qin pirated CD. My housemates thought something was wrong
with me, confronted me to ask if I was ok as I was listening to oldies. That proved they still have a lot to learn
about me. I listen to all types of music
la… ALL. What walked me there to get it?

 

I miss the old times. I miss school, I miss what used to take place
when I was younger. True enough… the
world is challenging. It doesn’t give
you a break once you are involved. Gosh…
I can still remember how I changed the lyric of “Hey, Mr. Postman!” back in
form 6, turned it into a patriotic song and championed the choir
competition. And someone was trying to
take over my conductor role remember? Haha… Those were the days.

 

No, I’m not leaving an
implication I want to live in the past. It isn’t my intention to remind you how we used to play with rubbers,
stones and bottle caps. I just miss it…
do you? The current life sounds
appealing to you? You love what you are
going thru? Then be thankful… I believe you are the lucky one.

 

A lot of people came to me
recently. Shared with me things that
have been going on in their lives. And
the most the matters are relationship-relevant. Break upS, third partIES, temptationS… you
name it, I have it. Epidemic. Not alluring at all, does it? Which carried me away to the old times. I prefer the old times. Simpler, easier but embraces you with
excitement. They never let you down.

 

I’ve got relationship issues
too. Bumped into a couple of problems
lately and it makes me realize that relationships are so mild. So fragile. Thanks to some dirty politic agendas. My relationships formed were shattered. Managed to save it but the scars remained. Wept as I was replying some of the emails.  My internship
didn’t end up as well as expected. Don’t
get me wrong. People there are more than
just great. I even had 3 times of
wonderful farewell lunches/dinner. Even
the HR gave me a T-shirt which was beyond my expectation. But I have to say, my last lunch was indeed memorable. It feels really GOOD to know another
trainee who knows a lot about teamwork and getting an unusual ‘souvenir’ from
her two days later… 

 

I guess I didn’t protect myself
well enough. Perhaps it is human nature
to be greedy on the nice things and whine on the bad one. The time will pass and I realize people are
very careful of one another.  Sigh… I
could not believe my eyes when I found out a person could lend a knife to another to
sabotage his own department. Young and
new. I still have a lot to learn and be
aware of… It really strikes my chord to carry myself well and staying ethical.

 

Internship was great. The exposures be it the technical, social or
humanism sides, they somehow altered the way I suppose things upon coming back. The first day I confronted my supervisor, he
told me he never like trainee. Which is
totally understandable. But as it went
along I was assigned tasks one after another. Until sometimes when my vice president was
away for business trip, it felt really depressing as the whole day can be very unproductive.

 

As a trainee, limitations and
restrictions in the company should always be regarded. Human can be rebellious, the more they are
blocked, more revolutionary deeds eventually come into play. And sometimes, when you get into trouble,
those whom you thought are friends will leave you an apprehensive glance. You cannot blame these people as they too
have the necessities to shield themselves. Sounds complicated huh? Which is
why I’m listening to Fei Yu Qin – Xiao Cheng Gu Shi (Small Town Stories).

 

A trainee - I don just hold
carry the name itself, I was also a reporter, a language interpreter, a tutor,
a photographer, a technician, an executive, a driver, a supervisor and a
brother. It was simply remarkable. Imagine me getting a hand on a facsimile machine
after only 3 attempts as I have been faxing white papers to the receiver. -_-“`  And after going through all the
hardship of doing some shipment tasks, realized, they
really were not easy; imagine a dry and dark place without ventilation and sweating from forehead passing through your eye lashes, dripped onto your cheek and your whole
shirt was entirely wet.  For a moment, there
was this gratefulness to my parents for they have been urging me to study hard all
these while.

 

Would love to get back there
upon graduation. But that time around, I
should be able to tell who is friend and who is colleague. My credit goes out to all the people there,
the current and ex executives. For the
people who helped me with my tasks, helped saved my laptop and shared with me
the stories and gossips of the company. As
for the political agenda, I guess I have accepted it as part of work. Reality is cruel. But I need to admit this, I miss waking up
early every morning to go to work as I have always
looked forward to go to work every single day upon waking up. I really do. People there can be crazy, funny and awe of wasabi!

Damn… I really miss all 28 of you.

 

It’s good to be back to uni as a
final year senior. Prefer my first
year though, although it still haunts me once in a while to have my answer sheets torn
apart by a lecturer. It’s just 2 weeks
and so many things have taken place. Some are involved in new relationships, some are breaking up, some have broken
up, some are having a few relationships, some are busy fixing back old
relationship, some have hidden 3 packs of UHT milk during the post industrial
training party, some kept away chocolate bars and biscuits, Sigh… one went for palm
operation, one was too slow to realize the whole class is a bunch of Kiasu
despite entering final year, and as for me? My junior has been asking for
notes. Passed her the softcopies and in
return, I was given a pack of banana crisps.

 

Guess I don’t have to explain to
you what does eating banana imply in Chinese… 

 

Missing the old times,

Emotional Freak 

The moment I heard my first love story
I started looking for you
Without knowing how blind that was..

We wont finally meet somewhere
We’re in each other all along

We don’t usually find the one we carry inside
But Love is kind..

She gives us second chances..

Thank
you once again for dropping by and requesting me to write again.. I have
finally found the courage to login back to the place where I started. Yes, you
got it right, the last time I posted a blog was last year, September 4^th..
Looking back at my previous posts, I think I have on-screened a lot of
R-U-B-B-I-S-H. Response: Criticisms have been very well received, but I have
got a bunch of compliments as well despite the ignorance of the “Comments”
column. And hereby, I share with you my narration of what has been happening
for the past 8 months.

 

I went
through a heart surgery last September, and according to Dr. Chooi, the success
of the surgical treatment was still a doubt. It was a follow-up operation after
the first one in August. For my birthday to be celebrated in such manner, that’s…
quite odd, quite a brand new thing. Trust me, no one would want to be
celebrated this way.. :] Late September when my second test ended, I was told
that one of the ducts had weakened and had to be eradicated soon. Dr. Yeap walked
out from the nearby operation theatre saw me and was there for me. Describing
to me about the things in life as ups and down, he said illnesses are just
challenges in life waiting to be taken down… “Worry not, you will heal and
recover, all you need is time…” Thank you so much.

 

Entering
October, my heart got from bad to worse. I took on a lot of physical and
emotional medication. Praise God… the decayed part of the cardio was removed.
The homeopathic prescriptions did facilitate me for my speedy recovery. And
surprisingly, despite all these trials and tribulations, I managed to do well
in my final exam. I extend credits to my two blossoming housemates. I scored
really well, and I was priti shocked. If only I put in more efforts, I could
have… never mind… I was never an A student. I should be thankful. The amazing
part was, I didn’t know how I did it. God has not forsaken me, and that is all
I can possibly think of. Praise God.

 

Shifting
to 1941 has really boosted my studies to a new height. Besides having the familiarity
to have a roommate again, inner attributes of the people you see everyday in
life were pretty well observed and kept in view. Snoar, stress, temper, having
no internet access, no laundry facility, no television, no radio but papers,
notes and text books from the living room, central hall right up into your bed
room… it can be reasonably agonic. But to be traded with good results and
achievements, that’s somewhat rewarding, don’t you think?

 

Well,
I’m not a nerd, and I need my life. So sometimes I would drive them to
different places for leisure and for some time off. The two female housemates
of mine seem so much happier after I joined 1941, that was how Big Mac
described, in a letter which was unsent to me. I broke into tears upon reading
it. He used to try the best he could to give assurance to people around him,
whom he pronounced he loved. But, will be in denial when speaking the issues of
fairness. Lots of sacrifices and empty promises were given for the sake of a
person who claims him to be his best friend, so called claim. I have no right
to criticize relationship of others’.  Different
people have different priorities in life. Being tightfisted so that you have an
abundance to spend on your girl friend? Attain first class honour upon
graduation? Multitask and keep ourselves busy until the moon arises? Or letting
go a girl friend of a few years and indulge in a brand new tentative
relationship? You just can’t point your finger to say someone is right or incorrect.
Basically, when you have such ambiguities, that’s when the concerns of moral
and ethic come into play.

 

Later
then came December. I spent the whole month: hunting for a spot for my posting
which will kick off the end of this month, continue inscribing my fourth book,
pursuing Singapore dramas and made a few new friends online. While all my friends are still
reeling over Hong Kong soap dramas, I have deliberately applied for Kerry
Ingredients, and Yeo’s ( including a few other companies ) in Johor Bahru just
to be able to perform my internship and enjoying productions of TCS at the same
time. ( Felicia Chin was alongside with Zoe Tay & Li NanXing!) – Never
mind, a Johorean should have no problem to comprehend what I am trying to
address. I am pretty much drawn to it typically because of the family values
and consecration of relationship among kith and kin featured. These essences in
those that I have seen so far, Fu-YoH… Like the new Digi number I’m currently
using.

 

 

Heng
and his girl friend visited me.It was late December. Poh Hoon and I took them
to hot springs, our very own leaning clock tower, Lumut Waterfront and brought
them to taste a few of our local delights. They have had a pleasant time here,
I think… as for Poh Hoon, I am not so certain… Constantly sick and ill and that
make me fret over her at times, and so I cooked her porridge. :d No, it isn’t
what you think. She had it shared with her housemates. It was excellent, they
said. Thank you, it was my first
attempt. Suspecting or rather guessing if we are getting back together since secondary
four? Well… I wish I could, but I can’t, and I shouldn’t… I wish I am able to
## God knows why..

 

2007
set in motions, and we had 2 courses under Ir. Dr. Jo. This funny man possesses
lots of hand on experiences. His way of lecturing sometimes drowse people at
the back to sleep. There was only a few of us at the front, who responded to
his gags and questions. Recalled there was a matric girl in our programme who
said, “没用的啦他… 教了这么久都不懂他在教什么屁!” My housemate backed him up and fired
back with her short wavelength high frequency note, “是你自己上课不专心别乱乱骂人! 还未批评别人时请检讨自己的太度!”… Well, I guess he is just unique in a way. Discussion can just spark off
between me and him about Judah and the Lost Tomb of Jesus. Shamefully, I’m
still a baby when it comes to faith and theology. I ended up being shown the
resources of faith he amassed scrambled all over his desktop when I consulted
him one day regarding my posting. We ended up talking for an hour before he had
to leave to pick up his wife from the Agricultural Faculty for lunch. I have to
say, Dr. Johari is the man!

 

My
faith went downhill over the past few months. God sent me an angel, influencing
me back to church again, do my service and to be a good servant of His. Angered,
that angel was disappointed with the mother upon her arrival from Bali in January. Even I was yelled. -_-` The following
day, the 22nd, went to Central KL before being taken to Crown Princess. Pretty
ad hoc. Exceeding over 1000 of heads, was the deposition of bible study by Dr.
Stephen Tong. My first time in such a huge congregation. Leaving after an hour
half with a bundle of deep thoughts, I was driven to Ampang with 1, 2, 3 and 4
strangers. It was an eye-opener to be taken to a family of mute and deaf as
well as the beauty of sign language that I’m currently dwelling in. Feeling was
very much mixed. Excitement, sympathy, gratefulness and thankfulness. This
assortment fabricates the sense of pebbles wrapped in a silk. That night didn’t
just end there, there was more…

 

 

It
wasn’t exactly a Happy Chinese New Year for me.  The day has finally come. March 3^rd,
Szen and his family have gotta shift to his brother’s place in Equine Park.
Been saying that ever since secondary six, but never really moves me until
recently. Feeling was blue for a few days. He ain’t a Teluk Intan local, but
hmmn… he spent his period of puberty here, for over ten years. Then there was this prolonged silence from the
angel. A gift from God, I guess He has assigned another task for that angel to
save another lost sheep like me. The possessions I have today belong to Him.
What truth do I have to stay something owned by our heavenly Father?  He is in control of everything, and I guess He
knows what’s best for me. Amen. Everyone has their own life. What took me so
long to have a handle on this? Stupid. Had ice-cream cakes after crunching 4
glasses of 45% red wine. Low resistance, the body heat was rather counter
current mixed flow. Happy belated 24^th birthday Chui Hoon, I’m still
22. 

 

Later
on, Junni got frustrated over the things about her I discussed with a friend. I over-crossed something, something just
between me and her. My apology, I really
am sorry. God took away the angel he sent me, I wounded my left hand. My right hand was amputated. The last day of Chinese New Year was spent at
YMCA KL with a group of misfortunate. Filled with over a hundred of people, all
I could perceive in the hall was the sound of the moving chairs, footsteps and
fingers tapping on palms and other parts of the body.  Attention was regarded using the switch of
light. Lion dance was welcomed with
cheers and laughter. Coping with the unbearable noise of drums and cymbals
compacted in the hall; I shut my ears only once in a while concerning that it
might be an insult to the surrounding. These fifteen days, I was pretty numb.

 

Throughout
this few years in university, I have learnt that there are things which best
remained unsaid, with the intention to avoid unnecessary occurrence. Nevertheless,
sometimes, utter it or not, guilt will still be justified on you. March 07,
vandalism took place simultaneously with the roaring noise of thunders. Finally
realized 1941 wasn’t meant for us, given promises was broken and forgotten. It
was time to take on another progress.  Later on, I was called up for an interview
with a MNC for my internship. With a bonus, they offer me an employment upon
graduation next year. Praise God.

 

As
the end of March sets in, I went for Mukhsin with a close friend after longing for
an answer from the divine of God. Sepet remains the best, followed by Mukhsin
and Gubra. Everyone does have a first love story to tell. Featuring Jason and
Orked in the middle of the movie is nothing surprising if you have been
following the masterpieces of Yasmin Ahmad, either on the silver screen or the
Petronas TV commercial during festive seasons. What makes the movie so
exceptional is that the magnificence of the script written and the portrayal of
skeptical stance towards the alternating cultural norms. Despite for only
around 5 minutes, it felt so good to see Sharifah Amani teaming up with Choo
Seong once again. I miss them dearly. Original DVD is sold at RM 13.90 much
cheaper than Cinta’s VCD at the price of RM 19.90. ‘Mualaf’ (Convert) will be
next, featuring Brian Yap of NST. Something to look forward to. Sound like a
waste of time? I guess different person sets dissimilar value on a diverged
observation.

 

There
are much more than just Alamanda when one frequents Putrajaya. Been there a few
times but never notice there are so many sophisticated buildings and government
offices on the other side of the town. Hardly see any petrol station or
restaurant in the well designed federal territory. Lightings, carvings,
designing and structuring, they have to be the best in town. Do visit before
11.30pm or else that area will be restricted. One word, fascinating. But the
irrigation part of the immigration department… Er… I leave that to you.
Haha… 

 

Redang
was next. Rush rush rush! Went for a session of karaoke with coursemates before
hopping into the train to Putra Station, just in the nick of time.  Lots of first time throughout this vacation.
First stay in a chalet, first apology to the Sultan of Terengganu, also the
King. My first ride on a roofless four wheel drive with police patroling behind
me, guess what? I did it Gubra style! ;d  My first snorkeling, first swim with shoals of
fishes, my first cut on the toe (kicked on a coral when I was trying to float
-_-` ). In return? I receive complaints
from them for constantly receiving calls, I’m like a coal now, learnt the art
of negotiation, and appreciative persistent SMS from a buddy who keep reminding
how much he missed that trip. Never will I forget the trip Gav, and you guys
gotta thank me for inducing this trip. :d It was a blessing to share the serenity
of the island with you guys. The three days two nights stay was just simply
remarkable. But it would have been even better to experience it with our lives
companions. What say you?

 

April
07, coming back to KL, it was time to return to reality. I cooked in front of
the whole class and I triumphed over Aishah’s fried rice! Nah… I was just lucky
I picked up on a preferred flavour, Chinese style fried rice. Did I look very
stressful when I was cooking? Goodness. I really thought it was a competition!
Having to deal with peanut growth model, Genting Garden and final exams at the same time, what could have been much more burdening?
Still, I managed to sneak some time to Putrajaya for half a day fun upon
finishing my first paper. Lol… Exam,
test, quiz … they used to dishearten me a lot. Past tense. Not anymore. I give thanks to you Father…

 

 

Upon
touching up my peanut growth model after my last paper, I spent the rest of the
night at the Experimental Theatre watching orchestral music performance by the
final year students. Themed “East meets West” this time around, it was my
second attempt to watch them perform. It was Concerto No. 3, C Minor. I wasn’t
sure if the pianist was too nervous, or Brian Tan was conducting the first and
second violinists too fast, but I think there was a part of either ‘ABAB’ or
‘CECE’, was off tempo. Can’t remember. But somehow the pianist managed to save
back the day. Some eastern songs were given new breath by Ooi Eow Jin; Dayung
Sampan, Ueo Miute Aruko and Joget Ketipak Ketipung. My friend and I agreed that
pianist Lau Chooi Wee was the best that night. Tapping on every single note
with poise, she was gracefully playing an unusual number  – Harvest Festival. Soul-nourishing. The
Allegro movement was ok that night, but I would still stick to Rondo which was
ended with a Presto coda. Guess what? Our puny little friend, Li Sen was
playing percussion at the back with FULL POWER, but a bit frail when she took
on cymbals. Her recital is on the May 3^rd, in which she will have 5
solos. Go! Admission is free. Do enter at your own risk as this is no world
class performance ok?

 

Sorry…
I don’t mean to put you guys to sleep. I try not to be so narrow-minded,
sticking to just a few types of genres. Enrichment of new things is what I’m
opting now. It would have been a waste to give everything to studies when we
can acquire so many things concurrently. Nothing comes easy. Appreciation takes
place only when we have gone through hardship and sufferings? Or does the
persistence come proportional with self satisfaction, whereby appreciation
stops when achievement draws in? It depends… nothing is ever certain, but, it
happens…

 

My
internship is coming up soon.

next
Monday… Monday…

I’ll
miss you.

 

Lapan
purnama adinda menyepi,

Kesabaran
anda amat dihargai,

Izinkan
menyusun sepuluh jari,

Andai
hujahku terguris hati.

 

Apa
sebenar sedang kucari?

Inikah
fantasi mahupun realiti?

Bulan lima akan
mengganti,

Perlukah
kuluka sekali lagi?

 

Apa
bakal kutemui,

Diriku
tak pernah erti,

Relakanlah
aku pergi,

Bukan
aku kau kasihi

 

i1i,

Pissed of Mind